The other day I went for one of my walk/sprints. It was a beautiful day. Almost a perfect day. I had the music on my iPhone set to random. For me, listening to my music in this manner is like listening to the radio. I have so much music that I really don’t know what I have, so songs pop up that I have never heard of and many cases I end up liking or even loving it. Case in point of the other day’s venture out for my walk/sprints. I was just starting out when a song came on which seemed to be some kind of song about championing over the darkness of life. The bridge of the song was “…wielding the shadows…” (The song I was listening to was Now And Forever by Tiësta) This was repeated over and over. I had never really heard that term used before. I took this phrase to mean that we should not only draw power from the light, but use the darkness (or shadows) in our favor. In other words, don’t look at life’s negatives as negatives. Things are only negative if we think they are negative. Things are in the shadows because we often put them there…into the darkness we create.
So I’m listening to the song and I look out to a long stretch of sidewalk covered in trees which were casting shadows on the pavement. At that moment I thought to myself, “You’re going to sprint faster than you have ever have before through the shadowed pathway until you come back into the light…” And with that, I did a small leap into the air and when I came down I was in a full-out sprint. The lyrics pounding loudly in my earbuds, “…wielding the shadows…” My eyes didn’t leave the sight of the sunlight out in the far reaches. I hadn’t felt this physically powerful in some time. My body was performing like a well oiled machine. For a moment I felt like 20 years-old again…for a moment. I soon busted through the shadows into the light and I felt great. I looked down at my feet and took some deep breaths and acknowledged my small victory. And then I noticed it…it was gone…my stomach! I looked down and nothing was protruding out. The was a straight shot from my lower chest down to my feet. I thought, “I don’t feel fat right now. I don’t feel skinny either, but I definitely don’t feel fat.” THAT was a really good feeling. I’ve accomplished a great deal in just over 60 days. I’m 2.5 pounds shy of losing 40 pounds. It took something to get this far. I do have to say that I’m proud of myself. I’m liking the man I’m seeing in the mirror. THAT guy on the outside looks like the guy on the inside.
I’m so very excited to see what the next 60 days brings. I’m committed to a life that is lived out loud!